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its a fat ass punch in the face when you get teased with interest. humor. and style and then some fool just stops calling you like some teenage heartbreaker. maybe its a huge excuse why he hasn't called but if he didn't die nothing can cure my anger. yes i will be really upset if he died but i'm concerned that i just wasn't quite what he was fiending for. i'm absolutely different from his last girl. i'll never call "bitches" out for staring at him or carrying some small talk just to be generous and i certainly won't kill myself. slice my wrist. or catch any murder charges to prove my motives or love for some dude. i don't get down like that. i have a huge heart too and i listen to all his boring and interesting stories like some pathetic nosey person. i'm fragile i'm lame i'm emotional i'm super happy i'm immature i don't like everyone to know whats fucking going on in my life and i realized why when i told one of my friends about him she took it upon herself to be more obsessed than me. wtf is your problem stop trying to exist in shit asking me shit about him ass hole "did he call you last night" "NOOOOOO! and your making me feel worst like a punching bag" then she says oh yes he did 'cause your happy and then i snap "I DONT DEPEND ON PEOPLE TO MAKE ME HAPPY" i lied i just don't like females to see how weak and fragile and desperate i can be they always wanna give you some kind of sermon and say "GET OVER IT!" or "MOVE ON" are you serious dumb ass this weakness isn't new too you. don't pretend like your so strong and you never been appetite less praying that phone rings thinking about how much my grandmother will love him she loves all people but he is a sunny kind of guy she'll ask when your boyfriend gonna come see me or tell him i'm gonna spank him if he don't come over here and give me my hugs and kisses mostly likely shit like that won't happen and i maybe doing too much doubt but i'm sick of pretending awesome shit is on the verge of happening appearing showing up abra ca dabra. this situation is about 2 weeks ago but i have a feeling that something good is gonna happen to me it may not revolve around me loving something but this feeling is very familar and i'm embracing it. i'm profound.

i hope i don't get too dissapointed =(

Hallween, NYC & erythang

yo yo yiggity yo
so yesterday was halloween..and my halloween was spoiled because stupid fucking idots of baltimore city and their drug related, bitch-assness related, gang related people had this little gang initiation (yeah didn't spell it right) so they had to kill 31 women to get in the gang on some other wack ass foreign bullshit and they were only targeting women. so my halloween was rotten yadda yadda i sat home ate food watched tyra got prepared for my trip to the nyc the citayyyy, i wasn't much excited because matisyahu & flobots were in Baltimore tonight @ rams head and i really wanted to go but i had alread paid my money to go to manhattan, yadda i've been to new york before but i never been to the citaaaaay time SQUARE and crap. Since my halloween which i was so excited for was spoiled and moldy [i was going to be a slutty bunny rabbit too] i decided to put on my pink wig because i love pink hair and people always yapp about new york being so acceptive of styles global, hobos, blah. I went with a church as soon as i got on the coach bus hooker and hoes were amazed really they were i never got a compliment because maybe they thought it was a sin [ pink hair rawwwwrrrrr] but they stared and laughed yadda. i wanna catch a train shit it was a long four and the half hour ride and we didn't even go to the city right away we went to some shitty little flea market where all the men were sweet talkers and told us how beautiful and sexy we were [Cassie & i]
some guys name sanchez: OMG! you girls are so beautiful, wow your from baltimore your so nice. girls in new york can't top you baby ooh buy a ring its only a dollar, mmm i going to baltimore to get a sexy women like yall, i have no girlfriend i'm loney can i move to baltimore with you?????

WTF? Part 1

Then when me and Cassie goes to the atm this hispanic guy selling baby clothes says "Halloween was yesterday" i imeadately say "lets fight" i was joking but i really wanted to kick his ass because he was too out spoken and kinda rude even though it was funny...i would expect that in baltimore but in a more under the breath kind of way not all out and about and loud and proud biotch you dead wrong
he goes on and on about how he is joking and then his friend tries to holla crispy chocolate kinda of fella not good looking, i say i got a boyfrind knowing darn well i haven't had a boyfriend in over a year i didn't want to hurt the poor guy feelings plus his wackness was yuck.

WTF? Part 2,3,4, etc

HALLOWEN,HALLOWEEN, HALLIOWEN
never heard that word so many times in my life
i got "Happy Haloween" "Ohhhh Hallowen" "Wow Halloween" and the favorite "Halloween was yesterday" we use to say that when we were kids to crack a joke but these grown ass men and women young adults were on the grind to let me know how yesterday was halloween.

i had madd fun

my sister left me and didn't explore with me she was being happy with her lover and when she is happy i'm happy. i got a angry shout from a old crusty guy saying "Halloween was yesterday" didn't even know where that came from he was lost in the new york city crowd, rappers were on their grind, Cassie got a lot of compliments where i just got Halloween comments, some guy at burger king talked up a stormed about Barack Obama his mothers white stomach and Africans and he ask me was my pink hair real i replied yes and what kind of afro american was i, i told him i was asian. He starts talking about chinatown. and asked for my autograph. Gave this homeless guy a dollar probaly buys a drink..madd guys were selling comedy show tickets and i spoke to two sexy white guys. The isreal lites or muslims i'm not sure was out and about preaching in time square and some sexy jalopeno was objecting their comments and they also had signs thet said "AMERICA WILL BE DSETROYED" heeeheeee! =) my back was hurting like shit and i'm a new yorker your digging





they were niceeeeeee!



cass & i


i <3 New YORK peaceeeeeee

MADD LOVE TO KESH NEWEST BLOG OF TODAY ABOUT THE WOMEN CALLING HER A CUNT..lol funny <3